Random evenings at a beer, long discussions that serve no purpose but to fill in the silence as if that would help filling in the distances. Friends.
But there are moments in time, sparkling eyes and yes...a silence in our words, defined by the lack of the noise of masks, that unveil a question or an answer. A part of the puzzle of a discussion that gets stuck in your head for moments, days...... A moment of nude truth.
A dear friend of mine, Topper, asked me this evening when heading towards the subway: "So...you started a president's blog?". I'm not sure. I think it belongs more to the 22 old girl than to the 100 people president.
Another friend, that i see so rare that i don't think we know each other's eye color, but still a friend in spirit:), asked me at a late tee last month:"You fight in AIESEC to become better, stronger, more than yourself at present tense. But what will you do after? At what will you use that immense power once gained? What makes you need it?".
Other questions left unanswered, that aroused from a beer random friend talk:
> Will you have the will to stop and become a mother?
> Why are you hear today, now, with me?
> What is on your mind?
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Do you have the answers? I don't have them yet. I am not sure i even need to........
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"Will you have the will to stop and become a mother?"
I have questions like this at times... And not necessarily regarding becoming a mother at one point :)
I think that when you start something and you achieve it, another thing becomes your purpose and you keep going and keep going and making plans... And not even the most rewarding things in your life can interphere in these plans, because they must become reality... Full stop.
... And in this moments, when you feel that the whole world will fall apart if you stop, you have to start enjoying the simple things and see if you are balanced... Yes, that balance in a youth's life, when 25 hours a day are not enough, and when the your whole life needs 25 hours.. and when not only you feel you don't have time to dedicate to a child, but you feel you don't have it to actually HAVE a child (in Romanian I think you can understand it better) :)
Take care and try to have a balanced life this year :)
Moru
Thank you Moru.
I am not sure i will try to find it this year, as this year's search is not one of balance but of transformation, and what transforms itself is by definition not in a static state, therefore unbalanced.
On the other hand, i promise i will take more time to enjoy some special people in my life. Maybe i will even sleep at your place soon:)
PS: I just saw we are going to Russia:)
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